life's complicated

when I have to be mindful of what I say to some people

• because my intentions may be distorted
• because some people just have problems with the things I say and do
• because some people are just twisted by default

when there are things that I wanna do but cannot

• because there's no ctrl + z in reality
• because certain scars can never be healed, cracks never fully mended
• because I cannot take back the things I say

when I wonder if I've really found you, when I think I have
when I think all above points are just excuses and I should just do what I feel like doing
Either way, my life has been interesting and fun. I guess I know why its fun.
Cause its complicated.
((=

high 翻天

一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉
我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒
一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉
我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳越高

A Tough One

The most difficult question of all acadamic time.

"So, what have you learnt?"

DDDDD:

Wedding Dress

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

xD

im feeling so happy now i think i can take on the world!! being temperamental is just another cancerian thing you know.. but i guess to a certain extent, life is fair after all.. it wouldnt have happened if i went shopping, or somewhere else other than home!

i know its childish, but im childish luh so.. xDD

this is last night's dinner. tonight'll be better, i think.. cause its salty, lotus soup, and lotus soup only.. its boiling behind me, waiting for me to slurp it all up.. im looking forward to tomorrow's lunch..

met up with sharon in the morning ((=

Confession.

Oh well, its the affairs-of-the-heart month.

For some weird twist of fate, I have been kinda asked, or have been touching on topics like that pretty often recently.. I have no idea why but then things just slipped out of my mouth, and I felt pretty good. I'm starting to like myself and im not really trying to get people to like me, most of them that is.. I just wanna be myself, and its too bad that you dont like me.. Hopefully you dont belong to those i like else i ll be very sad though, haha.. Life's complicated yes..

Anyways, my mood hasnt been very good recently.. No thanks to me being too sensitive and no thanks to my diet menu.. Yea I know, there're all troubles I bought to myself, but I just cant help it for being sensitive whatever my problem is.. I think its the cancerian thing xD As for my menu, it isnt so bad actually since I'm still eating normal lunch, but things get worse at night though.. Cause I never really liked sweet meals, and there're no salty fruits so its just very bad!

The worse of all things is that I've only started like on Monday and I'm already here complaining so I wonder how long it'll last.. And how bad it'll be if I cut down on my lunch too.. Baaaaah~

"A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes. ~Hugh Downs" I'm complaining, but I know I'll be happy in the long run.. I'll wait, I'll wait for someone who knows all about me and still stays with me.. I'll wait for you even though I know you'll never come.

It's all about Family

Another 6000 words this time ((=