That Song

It's really amazing how the right songs just appear at the right time, depicting exactly what I'm feeling at the moment. It's not that amazing when only one song came up at the right moment, but another one came up when my feelings changed at the moment right after that last song.

I was thinking about you, thinking about me, thinking about us, what we gonna be.
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.

Just a Dream - Nelly

Dream

I had this dream that was really nice, like I never felt so happy before and later it became heartbreaking. Although it's a dream, but I feel that its been played before, many times in real life. The happy start, sad ending and angry me. I cannot change the process, but at least I can change how I react, like how I promised to be. I cannot change the way I feel, but at least I can learn to act so that I will not make you sad, again.

RUN Run run

I made my life pretty complicated and unhappy, I think. Ah well, not that I can help it seriously. Just running round the vicious cycle. Instead of hoping to break out of it, I think its more practical now to hope that I'm returning to the starting point, which is almost always happy. Being in the middle totally sucks, its when all the unhappy things set in, feels like its never ending.. Its getting more and more serious after each cycle though x,x

FML.

Complicated

Complicated is when you don’t know where you stand in a person’s life. It’s when you’re hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime. It’s when you’re like more than friends but not really, and it’s like you’re lovers when it’s really otherwise. Sometimes you would want to have never met the person at all but at the back of your mind, you’re thankful you have.

Saw this on fb posted by some random 'friend'.

I hate it when random people post something that totally fits what's in my life.

Need Cure

I have no idea what am I doing anymore.
Let go, damn it!

when I have nothing to do

For some reason, this blog is infested with a number of pests. I hope no one is stupid curious enough to click anything weird from there though.

From yingchee's list of productive things to do when you're stuck at home, blogging is one of them so well, here I am. Looks like its been a really looooooong time since I last post anything hah.

A lot of things happened while this blog remained stagnant. Good and bad. I'll just summarize them a bit. I'm glad to be alive and having so many amazing people around me. Though I haven't been able to treasure them as much as I would like to, but I will work hard to. For things that are not meant to be, I'll just have to learn to let go. To give up at the right moment may be the best thing to do.

Oh well, I'm done for now ((=

Updates

Im back, no jams on Christmas.
Im sad, not mainly because she's gone so it makes me feel worse.
Im kinda happy, or glad, for the people I know. I hope they'd stay.

Im still good, overall.
See everyone next year.
Cause I'll most prolly stay at home till then.